Wow~~ almost 1 month nv update
haha been really busy these days coz exams are coming
this week end no love to disturb me, bit quiet.......
no worry, coz we r not having any problem, its just that hes not in town thats all
will be back by nx week :D
missing him a lot.....
now mostly spend time with my love, alone or kah bee.
u guys might wonder y kah bee, coz when im out, most likely is eating, so ask her if she wanna meet me n we go eat tgt haha
than also got ppl to scold n disturb~~
life is good. tresure it when u r a life, coz u nv know when is ur end

school

so much things happened in my family now and its affecting the children again....
y can't they fight n leave us alone????
ok now im kinda unstable...... my guy is trying his best to see me every now and than but he can't be with me most of the time when im going through all this shit things.
AND, i failed my FMA CA2 which weight 20% thought i still pass with combination of CA1 & CA2, its a wake up call to me that even if the sky is dropping, i must not look away from study......

Ages

It has been ages last since i update hahaz~ Been really busy these days.
Mon to Sun, non of these days im really free.....
Mon= monday blue and friendship building
Tues= friendship building
Wed= dance and darling
Thurs= dance and darling/ friendship building
Fri= dance/friendship building and darling
Sat= 24hr standby mum's helper (FOC mind u!)
Sun= rest and darling hopefully
my study or work time is in between the above mentioned.
hoho!!!! how pack can i be????

ok nx update-------------------
For the recent dance competition, nard n me finally got into 3 finals!!!!
though its all grade E categories, we managed to grab 3rd for Jive, 5th for Cha Cha Cha, 6th for Rumba
will be posting photos really soon!! so look out!

im happy to love and be loved

back~~~

MST is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok but this sat im having dance competition at NTU...............
Stress, but i'll try my best........ must get something this time round....
my luv went to India ytd for work cry~~~~~~ can't see him for 3 days..... will miss him like mad!
beside preparing costume for competition, i'll need to shop for more decent clothings..... coz he duwan me wear mini skirt........

how i send my holidays

omg holidays are gonna be over soon!!!! >_< time fly! alright, i hav something to announce, 1st i'm attatched!!!!!! but he won't be showing his face though~~ 2nd, im satisfied with the costume i shipped in from china! 3rd, i hav't start anything much on sch work n tests yet.... coz been busy with dance! i love my life now! though u can exclude the projects and tests hoho~~

Bro's Bday was on 30th May, bought him a military cap n a handsome top! Cost me a bomb thought.....$60+...
than went shopping alone n pampered myself with clothes!!!! spend about $170+ that day....
than last night i went to M'sia, my grandma's house, reached there at 11p.m.. its very late n i thought i lose my way..... lucky nv anyhow get down the bus if not i don't know where im stuck in coz its all houses n its super dark...

after i've reached ah ma's house, asked uncle to bring me out for supper! Yeah! and i really ate... 月光何, satay,ching tang,sting ray! hoho! Went home to sleep after that~~~~

the nx day, which is this morning, 2nd uncle treated me n ah ma to bah kut teh~~~ 1 of my favourite food! 3rd uncle dropped me n ah ma at city sq, gave us $50 each to spend and we walked around before crossing the checkpoint. 1st time ahma went starbucks coffee...... the staffs were very polite though i was't dressed nicely！
Went ichiban for dinner & its the 1st time ahma had sukiyaki hehe! we chat alot! i shall rmb these days

Today donno why i feel so stressed.......... Emily was right in saying that actually im exploding thats why ppl keep seeing me laught or went abit mad.......
the dateline is tmr for both projects.........
im tired...... can i give up? i donno what i wan anymore...... i hav no more motivation.......
someone plez help me!!!!!!

work again

OMG........ coming thurs would be the dateline for SM & MR projects..........
so stress now........... trying to squeeze violin & golf into my time table but seems quite hard.
but i won't give up golf, violin or dance!!!! jia youz!

wondering

Why the one who showed care and concert is not related to me?

He rushed back from Malacca hoping to hav dinner with me after hearing that i'll be out with friend doing project in the afternoon, though he has the choice of staying there for 1 more day to enjoy his holiday... But i was't able to go, coz told mum i'm on my way home.

I'm greatful that he give me attention and hope.

It's the first time im complimented and made to feel important or being cared. Without a father during childhood is hard. And this man came and talk to me to befriend me and comfort me.
Im not religious but still, i must thank god for giving me a special friend
thank you

bad hair month

donno wad to do with my hair anymore........
I won't keep long, coz i don't know how to keep it tidy...
think i'll end up cutting and make my neck look longer....
realised that when i dance, i look a bit hunched,
might be coz i nv lift up my head when dancing

Moberly

Yup we were invited to put on a show at Dance @ Moberly for the invited ppl to see~~
surposed to be there at 5pm but reached and started at 6.45pm. hahaz
the whole room was empty so we do our own run through of steps,
than nx moment, the photographers were in and we pretended to dance to allow a few photos taken.
We were dressed in 50's fashion and dance the night away with Jive,
its super tiring coz the beats were fast and tried to catch up!
Zang Jie commented that he's surrounded by 6 maidens and 1 mushroom....
ya ........ that mushroom is refering to me... bcoz of my hair....
I was preparing to run off at 8 sharp but the seniors came in 1 by 1 and end up we were playing and do funny dances with weird MCs~~
so stayed a little longer b4 rushing off to meet mum for part 2 of the evening. THE NIGHT IS YOUNG!

hahaz! Today was tired but fun! coz its the trail session for ppl interested in latin dancing!
the 5 vases include me was there~~(mich, may, mei, elaine, laiting) its fun looking at them dancing!
im putting more lov in dance now, hope that thing would turn out right! CHEERS!

lov dba 03

ok it was labour day and DBA 03 went to sentosa for outing!!!
made may koh wait for me at the station for almost 1 hr, and she tried to kill me when she saw me....

I asked Farhan if he knows ppl from the theater compass and he said yes~ so asked him if he knows the indian guy at cca drive and was told that he's the president of theater compass....oh well~~

so by the time we reach sentosa was almost 2pm than settle ourselves under the shade and off the ppl went running into the water! i duwan go in coz scare of water.... than was standing by the beach with may koh till can't take the heat and ran back to our shade. the sand was hot enough to bake eggs!

we were snacking for the rest of the day and was't hungry, just hot. posed a few stupid photos and carry on with wash ups.

last day of cca drive

was late to met Ben to go see the cca drive today, thought that sarah would let us off within 1 hr but end up at 12.30 and told Ben that i would end by 11+...... Die later again.......Its always late or very early, im nv on time. than had lunch and rushed to moberly to take over duty at the booth.... and im also late... reached at 1.30~ left my bag there and collect my bestfriend fm the club house, coz i refuse to dance without her~( shoes)

well, Cliff and Kai were there and there were few freshy around so did some recap and donno y end up dancing Rumba~

show a few times of Rumba with Cliff and get bit sick of it, coz Cliff donno my cha cha and i forgot that old cha cha, the i also can't rmb the new runba formation, so only do the old Rumba lor. but also can't dance with him coz feel very unsave.....

than Skye appeared to take over duty, tried cha cha with him than end up laughing, coz we have totaly diff style and not use to his way of dance.

than my friends appeared..... hahaz! ya its the 5 vases + boo jon you~ they requested for demo dance, so i danced Rumba with Cliff again, than some one caught my attention! A dark guy in the mid of crowd. he was cheering and clapping! after i finished, i approached him and he told me that he's from thearter compass and in year 3...... did't realise that he was standing at his booth, that's nx nx to ours... hahaz

tried to talk him into joining dance but unsuccessful, think hes very committed in theater compass bah...有缘会在见的.....

Lollipop!

Went to MOS for the Lollipop thing ytd after performance at Raffles~~
HOHO & I went there with my performance makeup!
It was erm....... bit over but no choice coz i left everything in sch~~
we were shocked when we saw the queue! it was so dame long!
so the 6 ladies approched the front of the queue and lookout for familar faces!
and mel saw her friends!!!!! we saw light! don't need to queue~~~
just than my hp rang and it was Jon Zee guess that hes somewhere around
if not he won't call me de~~
he tried to tell me that hes at home~~ rubbish!
he was just a few ppl away from me.
ok, the queue was't seems to me moving at a point of time.
& finally reaching the entrance, we hold our hands so that we won't get seperated
hoho May & Mel are under 18 so hav to wear the orange tape, Mich have it too though she's 19~
well the dance floor was't great coz think MOS should build it higher as the back ppl could't c the ppl on the dance floor at all~~~
there were so many tall guys blocking us!!!!! could't c a thing! no ppl would piggy back us! CRY!
when the party starts, we have sits but decide to head for the dancefloor instead~!
squeeze through the ppl and we still was't on the rotating floor!
Cliff & Steff came over to join us, he tried to get me to intro the ladies to him but i could't catch wad he was saying till he hav to shout .... in my ears.....
than we saw a space at the side of the dance floor & push may up~~
than drag the rest with me .
felt bit giddy but swing it outa my head hahaz! Cliff & Steff join us only after rotating a round coz no space. than its was alright but think coz im latin trained so end up dancing latin hips.....
after Cliff left us, we were suddenly surrounded by groups of guys HAHAz they made the wrong move, coz when a stupid guy tried to get too close to elaine, i put my hand at her back to warn him and he stand there for dame long..... than think Mich elbowed a few guys down the dance floor! super funny!
think this is bit too long so i shall stop here, the rest will be in my memory~~

Me Too!

Ya now adays im stressed and tired.......
trying to catch some sleep during lectures but unsucessful coz donno y can't fall asleep....
Ok next, if i tell u that im appointed to be the classchair person u would WOW! Mei! u also can become classchair ah?
well not bcoz my classmates wants me to, but is no ppl wanna do the job, so Mrs Sarah just call May and i look around for May Koh Kah Bee but she was looking at me...
turn around and saw sarah looking at me.....
well thats how i became classchair.... Screwed up the role any way~~
printing of worksheet and things to inform or pass around...
every thing is ermm..... i donno....

Nx ok i've been appointed as the treasurer of spds with freeman& JJ as my mentor 师傅们！
and skye as the assis secetary and Cliff as assis of public and events!
Bright future for the 2 young men!
we also have 5 members in the sub-comm and they'll be trained for future poses!
must thank Elaine, JunXian, Lisa, Mich & May for their encouragement and care!
Actually its not only them lah those that always recieve my sms de also included!
nv recieve de must sms n remind me! >.< hehe
must workhard le..... got lectures, homework..... & dance!

but now im confused.... i can't dance and look into hes eyes anymore....
guess time is up for us? but when? shall it be after cca drive or after the june comp?
coz im worried bout the team match.....

Well, i have a feeling that life won't be easy for me.....
hahaz someone knows the ans~~ but i won't say who
Its under table stuffs so better not say it out loud...
well i've decided to join the learning to jog progremme! who wanna join me??
trying to drag shermin along~~~~
it has been ages since we jogged, don't u think so??
missed and love the smell of grass~~~~~
been playing soccer for more than 5 yrs and switching to dance was't easy
but i did it anyway....
i might hav trouble attending sat and sun workshop n practise coz dad might wanna go to Malaysia tmr afternoon..........
i'll try to tell him that i can't go coz duwanna be blacklisted in S & G ......
think he'll show me black face and reluctant to give me concession $!!!! 真小气！
Shhhhhhhh......... don't tell him that :)

partnership

im back ppl!!
ya it has been a long time since my last post due to dance and stress
finally im done with the freshman party performance ytd!
and now my heart feel much lighter coz told partner that june'll be the last comp with him.
and i'll be looking out for a suitable partner.
we have been pushing each other too hard and when i told him that, he just said than don't push too hard lor.
i was disappointed with his ans coz that shows that he's still very childish.....
after hearing his ans i feel no regrets in telling him i wanna change of partnership.
his able to find a partner easily so its not a problem for him.
actually long before i felt that this partnership won't last long, but i just try to kept it in side but than i had enough................. so if u guys don't c me dancing in future means that im can't find a suitable partner~~~~

Disappointed

disappointed with myself,
why do i believe her again and again turn out to be nothing but empty words.
when u told me that u'll bring me along, i was delighted
but in the end u kept me at home to take over ur resposibility...
u gave me excuses but i take in none...
its a matter of time before i leave u
and never be controlled by u again

THE GUINNESS ST PATRICK'S DAY PARADE!

Read on the papers bout it and thought that should be fun if the few of us join in.
guess wad else i saw ?
i saw Melvin and partner on the papers! >.<
she's so beautiful!
im still hunting for training dress.....
and a competition dress that suits me and won't cost me a bomb...

SOMEONE SAVE ME PLEZ!!!!!

Oh dear..... todays a tiring day for me...
my HR specialist and partner went to Thus plant for meeting,
another partner on urgent leave,
so the 2 of us hav to perform 5 man job.......
thats so impossible!!! >.<
im dying to quit this sucky job.....
was glad when a girl walked in for admin job yesterday.
hoping that finally i got a scapegoat!
but tat girl looking for a permanant job and we only hav job till june for her....
she said that she'll consider...
and no news from her today sob sob**
no replacement CRY!

Ok. I screwed up the waltz lesson last night, coz the pace was too fast for me...... but waltz i still so beautiful!
Really wish to dance with someone i lov....

Waltz

Attended the work shop yesterday and IT WAS SUPER FUN!!!!!! its totally different from latin dances. NARD! CAN WE SWITCH TO STANDARD BALLROOM????????

Waltz

Can't wait for Wed to come >.I hav registered for the waltz workshop on the 5th & 7th march!!!
I might transform in to dancing standard from latin after i graduate from poly~~~
But this time im not dancing with nard but skye,
coz our partners can't make it for the 2 days. so we are pairing up
tried dancing latin with him but could't work out, might be due to nard n skye's different style of dancing bah. thats why i was't able to switch.
really hope that im able to pick up as much as possible on the upcoming workshop
might be useful on wedding day~~~ don't think too much, coz i hav't get a bf~~~~

lost

Its was Friday again. Tired, wore out, tired. i have lots of excuses to give up. But wad im i to do after that?
stay at home to baby sit brother? no. i don't wan to.
why am i carrying the responsibility of a mother?
why am i caring what they think of me?
im so tired so looking at their faces.
really hope that someone would come and take me away.
someday, i really hope and will leave
but when?

last day of lunar new year

today's the last day
should i call or should't i?
thought that im heartless but im not
im a child but not a child
happy but unhappy
free but unfree
dream but realistic

Sad day

ok..... i fell outside my office YTD!!!!! CRY!!! i was looking for any trace of my company bus when i missed the step and fell...... i was on both my knees when the company employees asked me if im alright. i just pause for a few seconds b4 getting up and moved on...... throw face throw face!
anyway on valentines' day, mich, sw,elaine, moon, jon ,jx and me went out for a chat in the evening but elaine was unable to join us for dinner so we went ahead with my plan to go the the indonesian restru along the S'pore river for food!!! most of the dishes are spicy but moon don't like spicy~~~ but i like the food there it great! we waited for 1 and a half hr for a table of 6
we were starving~~~~
after food we went to find may nearby working in retail and gossip or cause alot of disturbance`~
nvm i enjoy the day anyway~~~ the 2nd valentines' day that im out with friends!!!

working

dosn't have much time to blog nowadays.... coz of work...ya im dying very soon coz i really cannot make it for IT staff... workplace require me to use excel..... which is erm ... u know... beyond my reach... so think i really need to read through my year1 tx bk le...

My CNY.....

dear dear its chinese new yr and the youngster should be filthy rich, but why no one has order my rocher flowers???? Any way my CNY has't been a smooth one..... coz my parents wanted to return home earlier than normal from my grandma house in Malaysia... and they prey temples after temples.... to beg for luck in the new yr??? i don't know.. to me praying is not a must (IM NOT BEING OFFENSIVE HERE) as if they pray hard they'll get what they want... na.. they r wrong... its the deeds they do that'll determine what everthings that they'll get in return.. so im hoping to go out on coming sunday!!!! really hope they'll let me go out....... im starting to feel a little sympathetic for myself......

Fererro flowers for sale!!!!

hahaz went interview for an office pose this morning and i know this job from mum's client. well.... woked up at round 7 to get ready, by 7.30 mum chased me outa house (duwan me to be late...) ok.... and i waited at the busstop for the dame bus to come.....waited ...waited....waited... it came only after 20mins and its super packed........omg my morning is spoiled....
nvm still hope that later i'll get a job or somethin nice'll happen on me..
ok..i reached the company at 8.45 instead of 9.00 which means im early!!! YEAH!!
But......they made me wait for 1/2 hr....... sit at the registration counter and did nothing....sigh...
the lady came out finally and lead me to the room to hav the interview..... i know im good looking but i really don't need 3 ladies staring at me..... its like they wanna gobble me up ahhhh!!!! HELP!! just kidding~~
they asked me all sorts of questions... and guess wad?? i told them that im trained in IT and i hav studied marketing, accounting, MOB and many more!!! if they expect me to be able to handle big staff than im in deep shit......ya i know im asking for trouble.....
the interview ended with' we'll call you today or tmr ' ok its time to look for another job!
on my way home i called May Koh and she got a retail job wow thats quick! so now she's only free on mon and tues cool huh? 5 day week and get quite a good pay.
well.... reached home and saw mum's another client, she's an accountant.... asked me to tell her if i can't get a job after CNY and go to her office to work for her....... scary~~~~~~~
na i'll just continue making my fererro flowers and sell it, self employ~~~~till valentine day HOHOHO!! so look out for my blog for pictures of my master pieces and sms or mail me if u r interested to buy and order!!!!

Here it is

ok folks! i redid everything in photobucket and POST IT HERE!!!!YEAH!!!!!
cool right??in the newspaper format~~~~~ =]

sad......

ok......don't bother going to friendster to c the slides coz it does't work too......

Hey folks!!! i made an interesting slideshows but can't post it!!!!!!!!!
donno y keep having errors with the codes........ nvm i'll try posting it on my friendster??
so do drop by my friendster profile ok??

ok.....im really hopeless in itab...............................SOMEONE HELP ME WITH MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my first post~~~~~

Hi ppl!!!! i told u guys that i'll be creating a blog and i DID!!! yeah!